July 28 2003

Dreams at the best of times are hard to interpret. They are abstract and metaphorical, and can be interpreted in many ways. I personally have given up on the "dream interpretation" books, although I have a collection of them. I now spend my time trying to see how they relate to my life as it is happening now, without trying to seek out more deeper meanings. I keep a dream log, and write down what I remember as soon as I wake up.

I have an entity trying to channel through me sometimes when I write. It just started recently and more so in the last few weeks. I have such mixed feelings about it, and quit frankly, I am scared to let go.

Last night my significant other Vicky, was working with the tarot cards. She is just learning and asked me for help. She wanted me to ask her some questions. The most obvious, was to ask her about the channelling. I am looking for reassurance, that I am being channelled and I am not crazy. The answer she gave back to me was encouraging and favourable to letting it happen. Still, being the doubting Thomas, and not knowing how much outside influence I am getting, I thought I would ask my spiritual guides for direction before I went to sleep. I asked them If someone was attempting to channel through me.

This is what I recorded in my dream book, in the morning: I dreamt that I was back working in the electronics shop that I was employed at for many years. A customer called in and asked for 1000 ft of Beldon Microphone cable, to link his office with a trailer he lived in out back, so the his office could communicate with him. I delivered the cable to him. The office turned into a very large, dry docked, ocean liner. The job was huge and the cable was inadequate for what he wanted. His communication needs were massive and I thought he needed outside help.

Wow! Look at the fun you can have with this one. The choices are many and interpretations as varied, this is how I interpreted it.

The lines of communication have been requested by the entity. The information is massive, and I am feeling inadequate. There is lots of work to be done before the information will flow freely. How’s that?

My ego begs to make something rational out of this. I am reluctant to take any interpretation as fact or as positive proof that this is the direction for me now. However, it is what I have been seeking and I am inclined to let it happen, with the emphasis on not trying to interpret. I will allow the entity access to my pen, and negotiate with my ego to allow it through. I must be able to assure it, that it is not threatened. The entity seems to be benevolent and the information so far is beneficial. When the entity starts to take control of my pen, I feel only love and exhilaration. The first time it brought tears to my eyes. I also feel some relief that I do not have to do any thinking.

I am wadding in slowly, the first time it happened, I wrote about 8 or 9 pages in 20 minutes, I now cut it off at 2 pages. I am sure I could write all day if I had nothing else to do. I want to be assured that I can come back at anytime, although I am fully conscious when it happens, I reserve the right to maintain control of the situation.

Sharing this information has been less of a hurdle. The information would be useless, whether channelled or created by my own imagination, if it were not shared. The risk is obvious, and has been considered. Welcome to my inner world!